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trilliumgrlFeeling edgy, and I'm not quite sure why. We've been swamped at work and if I have one more person blame ME for this, they may die. They seem to forget that they were the ones who didn't want it slow. Besides I have no power over when a patient can come in. Grrrr. I can't wait for the week to end. I need to catch up on my email, get my life together, and just chill.
I went and saw _Original Sin_ with Kat last night. It was fun. I wanted to see it for the brain-drain value and I was not disappointed. Prettiness. I have to admit to being fascinated with the idea that you love someone enough to kill them and/or yourself. Contrary to external evidence I just don't think that my emotions run THAT deep and that strong. The whole idea feels foreign to me. Sort of like the idea of marriage. Both ideas feel as if they have no place in my life, now or ever. Somehow they don't fit.
Too much seems not to fit my life right now. Perhaps this is where the edginess stems from. My living space is wrong, for it is both too small and too crowded. Having all my candles above my head level is just one example of the "little things" that just don't quite work. My works hours are insane; leaving me no time to do things like going to the bank, since everything closes about the time I get off work and opens at the same time I get into work. Like a pair of pants that ride too high and hug the wrong curves all of this is stupid, petty stuff, and yet it seems to poke and rub me the wrong way, leaving me feeling edgy and wrong.
Maybe I'm just tired. I don't know anymore. Rest time I think.
I went and saw _Original Sin_ with Kat last night. It was fun. I wanted to see it for the brain-drain value and I was not disappointed. Prettiness. I have to admit to being fascinated with the idea that you love someone enough to kill them and/or yourself. Contrary to external evidence I just don't think that my emotions run THAT deep and that strong. The whole idea feels foreign to me. Sort of like the idea of marriage. Both ideas feel as if they have no place in my life, now or ever. Somehow they don't fit.
Too much seems not to fit my life right now. Perhaps this is where the edginess stems from. My living space is wrong, for it is both too small and too crowded. Having all my candles above my head level is just one example of the "little things" that just don't quite work. My works hours are insane; leaving me no time to do things like going to the bank, since everything closes about the time I get off work and opens at the same time I get into work. Like a pair of pants that ride too high and hug the wrong curves all of this is stupid, petty stuff, and yet it seems to poke and rub me the wrong way, leaving me feeling edgy and wrong.
Maybe I'm just tired. I don't know anymore. Rest time I think.
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Date: 2001-08-30 12:21 pm (UTC)sometimes life doesn't feel like it fits... and that is good b/c that is the time that you begin to take action to make it fit... usually this improves your life...
I am here if you want to chat... nub you sweetie...
Hey do you have Labor day off...
J~
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Date: 2001-09-01 11:12 pm (UTC)Why yes I do have labor day off. Why do you ask?
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Date: 2001-09-02 09:39 pm (UTC)I hear you are going to England for school next year... that is amazing!!
J~
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Date: 2001-09-02 10:32 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2001-09-02 11:08 pm (UTC)so can Bri and I come to visit you?
J~